Yesterday, I celebrated my birthday. And as usual, my fear of the future grew as I blew out the candle. Nineteen feels like a very serious age to be. Old enough that people stop asking what you want to be and start asking what you are going to be. Somehow, everyone else seems to have an answer. At college admission weekends, every introduction practically came with a packaged future. "I'm studying Neuroscience and Human Biology for Pre-med." "I'm going to do International Rel

It’s June, my favorite month, so let’s celebrate with some flowers! 🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸 Okay, now to the blog! Now, if you know me, I’m not exactly the aggressive type. In fact, there are very few instances in my life when I can remember being intentionally physically aggressive. One of them happened in third grade. My brother's two friends were in our treehouse messing around with my puppy, a tiny ball of black curly fur. At first they were just being annoying. Then one of them shot

I’d like to begin this blog by saying that I am very very jet-lagged as I write it, so forgive me if this becomes a tangled ribbon of thoughts. I’ll do better, I promise. Anyways, welcome to my mind! Don’t get lost. Admittedly, I have a bit of a shopping addiction. And even more admittedly, because I am surrounded by people who own designer things, I have learned how to recognize luxury from fifty feet away. To confront an impending money-losing spiral, I developed a ritua

A lot of people say that my brother and I have a very close sibling relationship. And I guess, from the outside, that seems true—we’re only two years apart. We grew up doing most things together: the same summer camps, the same chaotic friend groups, the same late-night arguments about whose turn it was to clean up the dog poop. When people saw us, they saw a pair. A duo. A prepackaged unit. But during his senior year of high school, that closeness felt like a fake myth someo